The end is an ally

I sometimes read Paulo Coelho’s blog. The things he writes and shares makes me wonder about me and my life. In his recent post, titled In the Wheel of Time, he talks about Carlos Castañeda’s reflections. In the first text, Carlos Castañeda talks about intention being the most important thing.

Intention is the important thing: for the old sorcerers of Mexico, intention (intento) is a force that intervenes in all aspects of time and space. To be able to use and manipulate this force calls for impeccable behavior. A warrior’s final goal is to be able to lift his head above the rut where he is confined, look around him, and change what he wants. To do so he needs to have discipline and pay attention all the time.

An intention has several meanings. But from what I understand int this text, it is a purpose. Intentions can be done if you really want to and for that you have to be disciplined. I find that the most crucial behavior to achieve your intentions.

The second text says that nothing is easy. Then further explains, “A man who seeks knowledge must have the same behavior as a soldier going to war: absolutely attentive, afraid, respectful and utterly confident.”

Things are learned with effort. A person with a talent in drawing doesn’t mean they’re naturally born with it. A person who can hardly draw when they were young can become a talented artists should he/she hone that ability. I could hardly draw a face when I was about 8 years old. I could only draw stick figures. But when I reached the age of 10/11, I practiced drawing until I knew I was getting good at it. (But I never considered myself a talented artist *rofl*) When I stopped, I found drawing HARD. Another example, is a rich person whose riches will all be gone if they’re not efficient.

Lastly — the end is an ally.

A man who knows that death is approaching every day tries everything, but without feeling anxiety.

I guess this is what they say about treating your everyday as if it were your last. There are times I thought of dying to ease the pain, to free myself from worries and people I hate. But what stops me are the things I want to pursue and do; I’m still young and I know there are still a lot of things ahead of me. I feel that I still have a lot to do to gain satisfaction in life even with the ups and downs as they are part of the foundation of my learning and loving. Dying would also mean not being with the people I love a lot. I also don’t want to become the reason for their sadness.

With those thoughts, I feel rejuvenated. What seems the end for me has just become a way for my improvement.

There are other reflections shared by Paulo Coelho. Go here to read the rest. I apologize for any wrong grammar or if I didn’t make sense. My meds are making me sleepy. ~_~

OT – I CAN FINALLY DOWNLOAD FROM RAPIDSHARE! Thanks, RS, for the HAPPY HOURS! I hope I will be able to download a lot before the happy hourS ends.

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