Knowing who’s worth it
November 1, 2009 
3:52 PM
Tags: “Don’t kid yourself,” I said. “We can talk about it if you like. You’re mistaken about my feelings.”
He stopped fooling with his glass and looked at me. “No, I’m not mistaken. I know you don’t love me.”
This confused me even more.
“But I’m going to fight for your love,” he continued. “There are some things in life that are worth fighting for to the end.”
I was speechless.
“You are worth it,” he said.
I turned away, trying to pretend that I was interested in the restaurant’s decor. I had been feeling like a frog, and suddenly I was a princess again.
Whoa, I didn’t expect I’d see this in my blog drafts. X_X The excerpt is from “By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Cried” by Paulo Coelho. It’s the first Paulo Coelho book I read (and has inspired me to read his other works). Fictitious it may be, but it gives me the courage to try. I know he’s worth it even though he has such a lame-@$$ excuse of breaking up with me. DX I may be so much of a sentimental, romantic, or dramatic person, but I know that I can fight until I can. Reminds me of that stanza in The Blower’s Daughter by Damien Rice:
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind…
My mind… My mind…
‘Til I find somebody new
A part of me is afraid for that last line to happen. ;_;
“We hold onto things for so long because
we’re scared something so great won’t happen twice.”
we’re scared something so great won’t happen twice.”
What makes me believe he’s worth it?
1. Being the eldest, I have always felt some kind of responsibility. Know what I mean? It was only with him that I felt I was being taken care of. There’s the security.
2. He was (and hopefully is still) my comedy character. He brought laughter when a boy broke up with me last year. He also saved me from making a further fool of myself with another boy.
3. He let me do things I wasn’t able to do before. Like being able to sway hands with while walking. Well, the ex-boy would get angry when I did that. *lol*
4. I was very comfortable with him. He made me smile and laugh like I never did before. He felt like the other half that completed me.
5. He said words no one has told me before. He made me feel important. He was my motivation; my inspiration.
The reasons aren’t so deep. I just never met anyone like him before — the one you know and feel you want to spend your whole life with.
“It’s that feeling when you honestly believed you’ve found the one
that’s the cure to all your sadness;
the one person that makes you feel true happiness.
You begin to love them for the way they make you vulnerable.”
that’s the cure to all your sadness;
the one person that makes you feel true happiness.
You begin to love them for the way they make you vulnerable.”
Soon I’ll be trying again. I know I’ll be making a fool of myself knowing that he just woke up one day and claimed that he doesn’t love anymore. But I did tell him, “I may start to look stupid and it hurts to be ignored. I just believe you’re worth it.“
I want to apologize again to everyone, especially my Plurk contacts, for the drama posts and for not replying too much. I’m spending the days and nights either staring at nothing or sleeping. If my world will shatter again (and I hope it’s not as painful as before), please be there for me guys. Please, please, please…
Comments
Thanks so much, Karen. Thank you.
I really hope it’ll work out ok.
Emotional pain is so sad and scary. It’s driving me nuts.
Thank you, Kat!