March 28, 2009
Plugs: Join the EARTH HOUR! (0 Comments)
There’s nothing to lose if you do. ^_~
March 27, 2009
Daily, Private: Protected: One thing I’m afraid of (Enter your password to view comments)
March 25, 2009
Daily, Private: Protected: OOC Shabby night (Enter your password to view comments)
March 24, 2009
Daily: I am not a leader, but… (0 Comments)
I took the time to browse my RSS subscriptions which, of course, includes Paulo’s blog. Some may think, “Ah, this girl is an idealist.” I know. Even my doctor called me that when she saw me reading Brida instead of Twilight. LULz~
Paulo talked about the ‘warrior of light.’ His other term for ‘leader.’ I’m no leader. I don’t think I am fit to be one. Why? Because I lack the ability. Also, why would someone who’s often ignored be considered a leader?
But the thing about warrior of light he wrote is something I can relate to.Let me quote:
They are in the world, are part of other people’s lives, and began their journey without a rucksack and sandals. They are often cowards. They don’t always act right.
Warriors of light suffer over useless things, have some petty attitudes, and at times feel they are incapable of growing. They frequently believe they are unworthy of any blessing or miracle.
Warriors of light are not always sure what they are doing here. Often they stay up all night thinking that their lives have no meaning.
I’m a coward, almost all my decisions/actions are WRONG, unworthy of anything or anyone, and I don’t see what purpose I have in life. To attract hate or be lost in the sea of loneliness aren’t exactly what you can call purpose, right? But my life has been like that. I’m always misunderstood to the point I don’t understand myself. *facepalms* When happiness decides to be nice, I’m afraid to accept that blessing. Happiness is often temporary, but I know there’s permanent happiness — when you feel fulfillment and when you don’t want anything else anymore. Will I even experience that or am I undeserving? Ah, but I have yet to discover what is real happiness for me. Feelings can be confusing and scary.
Paulo Coelho then states:
That is what makes him a warrior of light; because he has been through all this and has not lost the hope of becoming better than he was.
I’m not the type who will get myself down because of what seems to be not-so-trivial matters. I believe that no better will happen if I let it be. Only when others ignore my efforts will I ever cease the will the live to try. To be understood. To be liked.
March 21, 2009
Plugs: Homeless, Not Worthless (1 Comment)
I wish I could adopt all the homeless dogs and I wish someone could do the same for the cats. (Well, I’m more of a dog lover. XD)
March 17, 2009
Daily: Bro’s graduation (1 Comment)
Legs are still a bit wobbly due to the ultimate alay-lakad (something like a walk-for-a-cause to those who don’t understand the language) last Thursday. There were also long walks last Saturday and Sunday, so -.- Gonna blog about the reason behind the wobbly legs next. That was really something. *lol*I took the half day off at work to attend brother’s graduation last month. Dad picked me up. ^_^ There was hardly any time for me to shower. Also, choosing what to wear takes me time. XD; The ticket said the attire is semi-formal, but I went looking like some missing party school gal. *lol*
We arrived in PICC just in time. It’s still the same like my graduation before. Still no one from our department came. They’d rather party and drink than suffer boredom. LULz~
Family pic :3
There was already a long line to get inside PICC. Securities were checking bags for water (and probably food) since it’s not allowed inside the premises. I complained without knowing my former professor was behind me. I was slightly making a scene, but jokingly. He told me I’m still the same. XD; Then he whispered if I had water with me because he will get it in. *lol* Well, I had no water yet I complained. HAHA~ I’m weird like that.
The funniest thing that happened was:
*lol*
Whatever happened after that I’m not sure because I watched Knocked Up in my iPod and napped. Mom only woke me up to take a picture of Maru when he got up on stage. I sat with honors’ parents since that had the best view. Then a security told me to go away. We all know that it’s best not to irritate those who just woke up. I tried my best to talk nicely, but… >_>
After the ceremony, we headed to Kikufuji for dinner celebration. I ordered so much as if I hadn’t eaten in ages. XD; More pictures from the graduation are uploaded here.
March 13, 2009
Surveys: When boredom strikes (0 Comments)
… And I can’t seem to figure out what I should prioritize in doing next, it’s gonna be survey time. -.-
From Piya~
Name something that made you frown today?
When it dawned on me that this day’s gonna suck.
Kiss with your eyes open or closed?
Closed
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a mistake:
Million bucks. Mistakes are there for us to LEARN!
Are you rich?
Rich in debt.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
*lol* Yeah
What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
Getting out of the shower.
What were you doing 1 hour ago?
Talking with parents
What iPod do you own?
iPod Touch
What was the last thing you said aloud?
“SHET!”
How many different things did you drink today?
2
Are you ticklish?
I guess? XD;
Is success in your future?
It’s a must! *lol*
Are you a heavy sleeper?
Sometimes. Especially if I’m extremely worn out.
Was today a good day?
NO.
What are you listening to?
Atm, none.
Does someone like you right now?
I know my gurlfrans like me. In a different aspect, afaik, no. What’s there to like about me?
Who is the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with?
Jaja and Liza.
Where is the last place you went?
Dining.
Your favorite romantic movie?
Battle Royale
Is there something you will never forget?
Yep, there’s a lot I won’t be able to forget.
How is your hair?
Just had a hair spa yesterday. XD; It’s so soft nao HAHAHAHA
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Not a single person. It was with Jan, Phoebe, and Maru.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Looking at pictures
What does your last sent text say?
“Oo, natuloy kami.”
Do you wish on 11:11?
No. Should I?
Have you ever played naked twister?
Nope. I haven’t played that game evar.
First thing you notice of the opposite/same sex?
When it comes to guys, the height then the eyes + smile. XD; As for girls, their face, eyes, and boobs. I check the butt if the latter is a fail. *rofl*
How do you feel about Valentine’s day?
Nothing special
Can you keep a secret?
YES.
So what’s on your mind?
Happiness hates me.
Which shoe do you put on first?
Right
Favorite color(s)?
Green and yellow
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
*coughs* Yes.
Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
Yeah
Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forget
Do you laugh a lot?
Yes and people don’t seem to like it.
Are you happy with that?
I should accept with how or what I am, right?
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really. I don’t even know what love is anymore.
Do you want kids?
*smirks* Of course.
Last thing received in the mail?
Credit card on snail mail and a Victoria’s Secret newsletter in the email XD;
Are you random?
Very.
Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?
Yep. I try not to go into physical fights though.
If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
Yes
What’s the last thing you said out loud now?
Nothing.
Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Celebrations are always good *lol*
Do you believe you can change someone?
If I have changed someone, it’s not my intention. Part of the change comes when adapting to the environment. Gad, CLIMATE CHANGE!? *facepalms*
Something you dislike?
People who annoy me when I’m not in the mood.
Do you have trust issues?
Yes. I would sometimes wonder about people’s actions towards me.
