October 30, 2008
Daily: This is my blog (0 Comments)
… And I will write what I want. ^_^
There have been so many plans these past few days that I am now confused where to start. ^_^V Hmm, I guess I should talk about the drinking session with _the strangers_. *lol* Last Tuesday, I was _kidnapped_ by some people who were forcing me to leave early from my meeting. Of course I’m not that crazy even though it was tempting. ^_^V So, yeah, I met up with them after changing to slacks. A drinking session in a skirt isn’t a good idea, ya know.
We had some food and lots of drinks. We took pictures, but I don’t think I can post them up since I look _molested_ in them. Whatever that molested look is. *lol* As the night went on, I kinda forgot to think of how to get home. A number of my friends got worried that I wasn’t replying nor answering their calls after I posted in Plurk that I was out with friends without knowing where we’ll be going. My Dad was the only person I talked to when he called up. He only complained that I still have work the following day. *lol*I went home without feeling drunk or anything. It’s like the beer and liquor have no effect on me. >_> One of the best things that night was the talk with one of the guys who said that even though he’s just quiet, he understands my situation.
On another topic, don’t you find it irritating when you’re misunderstood? You wish the best for somebody, yet that one wouldn’t even realize it. Others would find it as if you have other intentions especially if you have a history with that person. Honestly, no. You’re dead wrong. My wanting what’s best for that person means wishing and praying for his happiness. Even back then it didn’t matter if I would be forever a part of that person’s life. I’m grateful for that person’s acceptance as well as making me learn a lot of things in life. Did that make sense? Whatever. I am just extremely irritated by the fact I am ALWAYS misunderstood.
Oh noes~ I am getting sleepy again. I really need to do some work or I’ll get a beating from the boss. ^_^V
October 30, 2008
Surveys: Music is my life. (0 Comments)
Did anyone break up with you in the last 5 days?
- Nope, but somebody did weeks ago. :3
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Who is the last person you called?
- I don’t remember. O_o
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Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
- Open.
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What’s the last thing somebody gave you?
- hurt.
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What are you liste​ning to?
- “You and me, we used to be together…”
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What do you usually do first in the morning?
- Prepare coffee
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Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
- Nope
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Is it okay if you kiss people when you’re single?
- A quick smack maybe. Well, it doesn’t matter anymore. Hmph!
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Could you go a day without eating?
- YES.
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Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
- I don’tthink so.
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Describe your mood?
- “Hush, hush darling…”
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Have you ever felt replaced?
- I have been replaced.
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Should you be doing something else right now?
- Yes, like sleeping.
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Who is the craziest on your top friends?
- Pebbles. LOLz~
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Who was the last person you talked to on the phone to?
- Carol
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How old do you look?
- 60
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Are you different now than you were a year ago?
- Yes -_-
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Have you recently been let down?
- Yeah -_-
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Who do you trust the most in your life?
- No one.
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Who did you last hug?
- Nina? O_o
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What’s something that can always make you feel better?
- Music
October 29, 2008
Daily: Still sleepy (0 Comments)
Arrived in the office early again. I need to do something productive. I haven’t emailed the boss any updates on my tasks. ^_^V Here’s what I need to do today:
1. Report on the Local Health Development meeting – family planning, 100% smoke-free environment, OsMak, and OsMak’s NICU. There are other topics yet I can’t seem to remember them atm. *facepalm*
2. Reimbursement letter to World Bank from Mayor. I hope he already signed it.
3. Makati IRA
@_@;;;
October 27, 2008
Daily: Wonderful weekend (0 Comments)
Thanks ladies for the time! ^_^
With Jhan and Phoebe
Before going with Jhan to Phoebe’s place, I had to meet up with ‘rents first in Glorietta. I bought new formal shoes and a FUCKING CELLPHONE. It’s a Motorola V9. D: Not bragging, but I really don’t know why I bought it. The realization hit me after paying. *lol* I have no idea what its features are except for its big external screen that can be used to view multimedia and read incoming messages. :3 It’s pretty cool.
I’m starting to love it. It’s mahogany and sexay~~~ A picture of me, on the left, camwhoring using the phone *lol* Phoebe told me I’ve done this before — impulse buying due to my being annoyed with the world. *lol* Anyway, Jhan and I went to Phoebe’s after dinner. She was really surprised when we got there because she thought we were just playing around. XD; We had sisig, watched movies, etc. One movie we watched was HAVANA NIGHTS. I think that’s the 3rd or 4th time I’ve seen it. Diego is so HOT. I want to dirty dance with someone too. :D We also watched some Cranberries mv’s and listened to a variety of songs. Indio I ftw! :3 We were trying to influence Phoebe not to study while we were there, but she just had to be a studious one. XP She even fell asleep! Boo~! >_<A special someone messaged me in the middle of the night saying, “DRINK RESPONSIBLY.” Awww~ ♥ ♥ ♥
So there. We didn’t do anything productive. We just chilled and smoked. XD; Before Jhan and I went home, we walked around GREENBELT 5 (our second home *lol* J/k!). I waited for the family to get to Greenbelt 1 to have a Cyma dinner celebration for my Dad’s birthday. ^_^ (Belated Happy Birthday to him!) They had to go to MCS first to get the renewed gun license. Then around 6:30PM they arrived at Cyma, so Jhan and I had to part ways. We promised we’d go shopping next time for clothes.
Gotta save moolah first.October 27, 2008
Daily: The more I give to you… (0 Comments)
You have to excuse the emo posts from time to time. Ranting and venting to my friends hasn’t been enough actually. *lol* I have tons and tons of things to blog about, but I haven’t figured out where to start. So I have to properly plan that first including a bunch of other things. My days lately, although not really a mess, hasn’t really been productive.
This, though, I have been wanting to talk about.
The more I give to you, the more I die.
It’s a line from one of my favorite songs. (Guess what song that is! *lol*)
This line has a strong impact to me after going through a fucking disastrous relationship. When Mac and I started going out, I wasn’t sure if I would love him but I liked him a lot. I told myself I should stop playing around and be serious again (because the person I liked before took me for granted, but that’s a different topic). Eventually, I learned the feeling of loving him. I gave my love in various ways. He became my priority; part of my life decisions. Even when I was sick, I was there for him. I did things that years ago I didn’t expect I would do like being PDA with him. I didn’t like the idea, but I didn’t care what others think — I just wanted to hug and kiss him to show even strangers how much I loved him. When there was something he needed, I did everything I can to give it to him. It didn’t matter if my parents or friends would get mad. It didn’t matter if I become sick, tired, or poor. What mattered to me most was his happiness. My heart would flutter when he shows his gratefulness and appreciation in his own way of loving. In short, I gave him everything without knowing that I was going to hurt myself in the end.
On the moment I felt lost, I asked, “Where should my love go? Who would love me?” Too much love has killed me.
But is love supposed to be that bad? Neri, a high school friend, blogged about when one is given an opportunity to love. She said that a person should cherish that feeling and give it all he’s got because he will never know if the love will last or not. What matters is the present. Not the past nor the future. It hurts a lot when a relationship ends in a snap, but we should believe that breakups happen FOR A REASON — that better things will come.
October 23, 2008
Daily: Mixed emotions (1 Comment)
So much has happened lately. I thought everything was going alright. I was slowly getting back on track with organizing my priorities and duties. Then something happened that I didn’t see happening — Mac breaking up with me. It happened during the weekend. It went by so fast that I still have a slight hang-over from it. Again, I have a slight hang-over from the event. Not with Mac, mind you. Some people do not get me at all. >_>
I still don’t have the heart to explain what happened. (Man, I haven’t even talked about the death of my dear pet Allie then this comes…) Later on, maybe I shall. After much argument with a certain person, I can say that wrong judgment comes when you let your heart choose over your brain. Like they say, you better know who to take care of — the person or people who care for you the most.
Thanks to Phoebe, Joiz, Carol, dementia, Janine, aqrn785, Maru, ROLAND, Doy, Arni, Jaja, Liza, and a bunch of other people who were there for me.
Oh well, PARTY MODE ON! *ROFLMAO*
