July 31, 2003
Music: sick as heck (6 Comments)
I so want to abandon my blog already. Nothing much is happening and most of the stuff I’m posting are total nonsense.
I’m still depressed about my band ‘coz they’re kinda being useless. I wanted to hold a little party on my birthday and have the band play, but they’re being mean and won’t even _try_ to practice. So much for that. It sucks when you feel that for all the things you’ve done for them and all that work you’ve been doing, they just end like crap. It made me feel unimportant. It made me feel that every work I did was nothing. We were already progressing when they start being delinquent with practices. Especially our vocalist. She’s one of those who prolly has a million reasons not to practice. Rude, ne? I don’t understand her… yet she’s turning my efforts for the band into complete waste. I really can’t get over it. I’ve gotten sick a lot of times because I’ve been working my ass off and, again, ALL FOR NOTHING. Our drummer… geez… that drat man. *punches him* (I wanna stab him, but I think that’s too eBil. *lol*)I think I had a slight fever this morning after our surveying. My joints felt like they hurt or were going numb. I had a hard time walking, but I can’t let my classmates see me being a slowpoke while doing our field. *bleh* But being under such heat really made me feel like shit. I slept on my way home, so I could have at least some energy to walk to our house. (It’s a building, but the the 1st & 2nd floor are for rent. We live in the 3rd floor.) After changing clothes, I talked for a short while to my master, Asthere, and went to sleep. I think my knees were even shaking. When I woke up, I was feeling a bit hot but I was trying to _feel_ myself (not like _that_ perv!), but it felt like it was just the normal body temp. Then I realized, the fever I get is always _inside_ my body. I don’t know if you’ve encountered that.
The package from Sarah just arrived. Yay-ness.
More anime cd’s and prolly some yaoi. 
I forgot what I wanted. I’m going to have to update my trading site soon. o_o Which reminds me… I gotta visit someone’s bloggie. She doesn’t want me to visit it ‘coz she claims it sucks or something like that. Hehe~ I’m pretty sure it isn’t. Gotta look for the link soon. The other day, I was trying to draw Rui and I think I don’t have the skill to draw anymore. -.- It took me very, very long just to finish his face!!! @_@ Gotta practice more before I start studying on how to draw yaoi yummy scenes. I’m listening to Fly to the Sky’s 3rd album. M@d good. It actually made my bad mood disappear. Btw, I like The Pillows! They rock!!! Any other fans out there!? All their songs are good. If you haven’t heard of them, try downloading mp3’s. They’re all worth listening to. You gotta like rock music though.
They did almost all the songs for FLCL (by Gainax). Cool, huh? The 100 PoT questions was supposed to be answered today, but I got lazy _again_.
Aliditz will kick me. Hehe~ I need more PoT dose!!! 
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*bleh* Must update the fic Mica and I were working on.
After this, I might not write any more fics. 
I’m not good at it. Clare
Thanks for visiting maii bloggie. SNOWANGELZ!!! *glomp*
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July 30, 2003
Daily: Daily ‘coz i’m really sleepy (Comments Off)
Crazy bleh = INSANE.
Gawd, I’m swamped with things to do again.
One thing’s for sure, I forgot to study tonight!!! -.- I failed the first quiz in our surveying, so I’m really sad about it. I get depressed just thinking that I _might_ be the lowest in class. Waah~ How shameful! I thought I would at least get a 50 or something because I was able to answer everything. I studied the formulas and all, but the answers with my computations were all wrong! IT MUST HAVE BEEN MY CALCULATOR! Darnit! 
XP Reminder to self: Watch out first for the calculator’s mode.
I _am_ stupid. Boo me.
Two days again was my brother’s birthday. Since I’m poor, I only treated him to McDonald’s. Then we went strolling in the mall when my dad called us up because we would be going somewhere else. Hehe~ We just went to another mall and went shopping. I got to buy cheap Italian skirts! Lucky! They’re pretty too.
I can get to wear them with maii boots. What happened to Maki & Cathy? I miss you guys…
Cristina! I soO wanna do it, but I think I’m chickening out. I need more confidence!! What should I tell him anyway? “You look good in yellow.” @_@ Something like that? *gah* I also wonder how I’ll be able to give that to him. Suggestions please! People!!! Suggestions! Hehe~
Awww, Mel doesn’t know where I live. I’m from the Philippines. ^_^;
I wanna post more, but I gotta sleep already.
Check the time. It’s 2 am and I gotta wake up by 5:30 am. -.- Oh yeah! Aliditz!
I’ll answer those 100 questions soonJuly 27, 2003
Daily: are you married? (1 Comment)
The postman, who’s been with us since my mom was still in hs, asked me that. 
Unbelievable. I’m not even wearing a ring on my ring finger. The oddness of life. *sweatdrop*The package from Thailand that I’ve been waiting for has finally arrived!!!
As a matter of fact, it arrived weeks ago but I couldn’t claim it because of stupid corrupt customs we have here. They want me to pay almost $60 just to claim the cd’s. >_Hana Kimi S!)July 24, 2003
Daily: sites to check out (1 Comment)
Elegant Gothic Lolita — this is an old article. Read it if you’ve got spare time.
Parasol Page — cute parasols!
Azrael’s Accomplice Designs — some nice dresses in here.
Morbid Outlook — lots of interesting articles.
I’m gonna go take a nap or prolly draw. Heh~
July 23, 2003
Daily: I was reading my previous (2 Comments)
I was reading my previous post and, *lol*, I didn’t make any sense about the professor thing.
I kinda mean if he’s nerdy then he must be _wild_ in bed. I do believe that innocent-looking people like him (nerdy-types for one) are wild when it comes to sexual matters. That’s a plus for that prof. Man, he’s got white smooth skin I wanna leave a scar on to. Bwahahahahhahaha!!The depression seems to be gone.
Nothing that could affect me emotionally is happening, so… yeah… everything’s cool for now. Thanks to all those who comforted me. 
It makes me happy. *glomps Mel, Cristina, & Ezzo* I might have forgotten someone, but in case I did here’s a glomp for ya! *GLOMMPPPPP* Guys!! Read Boy’s N Girl!!! *roflmao* It’s soO funny and wild. I’m checking MegKF’s site now and I think the chapters are on Y!Group. Welps, that is if you can’t download from IRC.
I would luv to host this manga, but not anytime soon. *tee-hee* You can find her fserve on #nakama too. I also have them in case you guys are interested to get them. Just get on IRC and I’ll dcc send to you. It’s worth sharing. Really. Speaking of mangas… go to shi-ran and download Private Magician. Mata Natsu ga Kita is good too as well as Pinpoint Lovers. wo0t!!! GO YAOIII!!! Kara also luvd the dresses! Yep, the first two are adorable. I would really want to use sorta the same style as my wedding dress. Heh, I also wish I could wear gothic/victorian dresses to school, but they’re not fit to be _school_ clothes and it’s too much for our weather. I might faint just walking along the school corridors. I mentioned before that I watched Dancing in the Dark in the theater, ne? I remember mentioning that the movie isn’t suited to be watched on theaters, but I didn’t mention that while I was watching the guy two seats away from me has B.O.
YES.
BAD ODOR. KCUF IT.
I was already dizzy and this man wants to kill me. ~_____~
Damn school. When I was almost 5 minutes away from the school grounds, they suddenly suspend classes. Grr. I was even wearing my witch-lookin’ shoes, so my feet was already hurting. It was also raining hard, the wind was soO strong I could hardly open my umbrella and there was like a mob on the roads/streets. -.- The advantage of having classes in the afternoon is that in cases like this, you don’t have to go to school anymore but if they’re slow like that… >P They need serious beating. Hehe~ Making me suffer out there.
Mel: 2 Hours? That’s pretty near.
To Japan from here prolly takes… 5 hours? Hmm… I’m not sure… 4-5 hours, I guess. Cristina~~~
I also wanna wear the black one, but my relatives are kinda superstitious on these things so I might not be able to wear a black dress like the one in the pic below. ^^v Kara! Hee-hee~~~ If we’re going to wear such dresses, I wonder how the groom would look like.
We’re going to be soO pretty in those dresses and our grooms would be to-die-for. I’m dreaming again. Oh, I also like those renaissance-type dresses. Yeah… the boobs popping out. That would be cool. But I ain’t sure if I have something to show off. Haha~July 22, 2003
Daily: Lookit the dresses I’m eyeing (3 Comments)
Lookit the dresses I’m eyeing on.
They’re cute, ne? *grins* While I was browsing for such clothes (gothic & victorian), It occured to me that I want a victorian motif for my wedding. ^_^;; I know it’s way early for me to plan, but at least I got an idea. *rofl* I told Asthere that I’m pretty sure when the moment comes, I might be deciding for something else.
I also saw some nice shoes. I’ll post the pics when I find where I saved them. Mel dear.
Yes, I do understand your english. Don’t worry so much about it. 5 am you’ll be leaving? How many hours will it take for you to get to Spain. Any idea? I think I finally got over the depression. Depression is my bestfriend though. So I’m just kinda ignoring it. *sighs**glomps Ezzo* Waii! Thanks muchies for leaving a comment.
I wish I could start over with my band again. It’s going to be tough since things seem to be out of hand now. It’s hard when only one is interested to keep the band going, looks for gigs, organizes schedules, etc. I do most of that. I ran out of patience before coz I realized that I’m doing almost everything, but I now think that it’s best to ignore. It’s tiresome to worry over it. It also sucks that I feel like everything’s my fault. As if I still lack attention to the band. I already talked to my friend about it before, but she kinda doesn’t listen to my reasons. She’s the type who wants everything her way. Hehe~ Do you think that’s good?yO Dizzy! Thanks for visiting the bloggie…
That’s why I hate being attached to anyone now, Cristina. When it comes to boyfriends or bestfriends. I somehow distance myself from people… and not to get too close to them because I always end up alone in the end.
This sucks. I think of too many petty things and I’m also dumped with my dad’s problems. Wtf. *gah* Whenever my dad talks to me about my mom I get annoyed. Not only that, also pressured.
On the lighter side, Eloisa’s professor in stat is that HOT professor that I keep seeing last term.
I should always check on her during 1:30 sched on Saturdays. Maybe it’s also the same time for Tuesday or Thursday. Eloisa said that he’s cute, but he’s a major NERD. *rofl* I don’t mind. That makes him HOTTER. He once said that their stat book is a very exciting book and he has that gleam in his eyes. ^^;; Weird, eh? It’s as if he’s in love with the book. If he’s like that then he migt be wild on the bed. *dirty thoughts* Surprisingly, my classmate on the same sched as her stat is her crushie. We should exchange courses, ne? John is also the same course as her… *sweatdrop* Speaking of John, Eloi asked if I didn’t get turned off of what he did. T_T*yawns* More posts later. I’m soO sleepy.
July 19, 2003
Daily: depressed than ever (6 Comments)
aqrn785: Yeah, class starts @ 7:30 am for me… except on Mondays though. I think I’m getting used to it. -.-
rice: Hehe~ I wonder if this is really _family_ friendly. ^^v With the yaoi and all…
I’m sorry if I wasn’t able to help, but I’m glad Gm is working for you now.
Mel: I hope you enjoy your vacation in Spain. Tell us about it when you get back.
Cristina: Waii! You also read Get Chu?
It’s such a cute manga. There _must_ be more happenings in the next chapter. It’s somehow getting exciting. I’ve caught up on BxB Brothers too. Funny and cute. Oh, the girl in the drawing is Kotori. Hehe~ Doesn’t look familiar, ne?Hello, snowangelz! Thanks for visiting my bloggie.
You got an interesting blog as well. *reads posts* (Plus, many quizzes to check out too! Cool!)Cathy:
Yupyup! It’s the Real School one. Taya’s improving in his acting skills. Hee Jun’s funny too. Aww, I hope you’ll be able to save up for a compie. But that won’t be for a long time, so let’s not worry about that. Go blog, blog, blog! Hehe~ Which channels should I go to, btw? I’ve been looking for a chan with k-pop stuffuuu!!!Aliditz!!! *glomps* New bl drama!? Yay!!
If you’ve seen it, tell me about it. *grins widely* TeniPuri yaoi rocksss!!I might sound happy, but I’m really depressed. First off, I’m thinking of quitting the band. I’m getting tired of it all. Calling up my bandmates, asking them when they can practice and stuff, but they always have this fucked up excuse that it’s getting on my nerves. I want to understand our drummer about his situation, but whose fault was it anyway??? I will give him a beating if I see him. >___
